But I was glad to see the look on your face, anyway

6 09 2011

I’ve been meaning to sit down and write for about two weeks now. I’ve had several sketches/conversations in my head of things that I’ve been thinking about like…why does Fall get two names? And who is seriously pretentious enough to call it Autumn? Holy fuck, it’s nearly Autumn.

I’ve had a cramazing summer. Crazy + amazing. I just made that shit up. BOOM. I’ve been to NYC, Miami, ATL, Michigan…and it’s not slowing down. I head back to NYC at the end of the month for a full week. I’m both excited and nervous. And I definitely need new shoes.

Work has been totally insane, but awesome. I can honestly say I love my job. I can’t always say I love the people, but I love what I do. I’ve had so many amazing opportunities given to me this year and I am being challenged and forced to really stretch and prove myself. It’s what I needed all along. I still complain, because that’s kind of my shtick, but don’t believe me. I am 29 years old and I have a career. It’s terrifying, and fulfilling all at once.

The boyfriend is good. No. Not good. Great. So great. We’re doing the cohabitation thing on a more official basis and some days it’s hard. It’s always hard to live with another person, no matter who they are, but I think we’re really doing well with it. My father is starting to come out in me and my OCD “everything in it’s place” personality is starting to shine. But, my depth of patience is so much deeper with him. I can’t stand to sleep alone anymore. I do miss my cat, though. Like whoa. But I’m thoroughly convinced someday he’ll get a handle on his allergies and I’ll be able to snuggle my kitten at night, too.

I’ve been a bad friend and a bad blogger this summer. It’s not for any other reason than I just haven’t had the time. I owe many people phone calls and visits. Soon. I promise.

We started remodeling our bathroom. This man truly loves me. He just let me loose in Home Depot, Lowes and Bed, Bath and Beyond with minimal sighs and only one argument regarding a shower curtain. We finally got the two layer of wallpaper, with paint in the middle of that fuckery sandwich, down and as soon as the walls dry out a bit, bless you wallpaper steamer, we will prime, sand and paint. If IKEA ever gets their shit together, we’ll get new “furniture” and hook up a new light and have a beautiful new bathroom. I’m hoping by Christmas.

You only think I’m kidding.

I did Riverfest this year even though I said I wasn’t going to. I am so glad I did. It was the first year it rained during the fireworks. I stood there looking up into the sky, rain kissing my face, Manfred at my side, giant goofy grin on my face. It was amazing. Thanks to Wifey for the hookup on location this year. No crowds, food and booze. Perfection.

I have no new music recommendations for you. I haven’t listened to much music at all lately. It’s awful. I did buy the Muppet album and it’s fantastic. This morning with the cool, grey weather I felt like Wussy – Funeral Dress II was appropriate. I forgot that half that album makes me cry. DO NOT TELL MANFRED. He can’t know how much I like that album, then he’ll make me listen to more of his music. ;)

Ok. So this was your update. Recap: Things are crazy busy and crazy awesome and someday I will get this thing up and running for reals. I have so many project ideas, that’s my other alphabet disorder shining through, but fuck me…I need more hours in a day.

 





And it goes on and on and on

23 06 2011

Why aren’t we all over that “I throw my hands up in the air sometimes” song yet? Or the Black Eyed Peas? This is the shit that keeps me up at night.

HI!

When we left off, I was on the eve of my 29th birthday. It is now exactly one month later. How is it? Meh.

My actual birthday was terrible. It stormed and tornadoed and we lost power and I sat in my basement for most of the night in the dark. BUT, when it subsided a bit, I sat in my car so I could listen to the Reds game and Manfred came over with cold Dewey’s and Yuengling. All was not lost. I am far enough away from it now that I can kind of laugh it off, but the few days after I was PISSED. How DARE mother nature shit all over the day of my birth?! The last one in my 20s no less?! But, it is what it is. I still got to spend time with my fam and my man so that’s what’s really important, right?

Since then I have been doing the same old shit. I FINALLY hired a PT designer as my “assistant” and she’s great. Work is about to go balls to the wall, but I’m excited for all the new opportunities. And to have some back up.

I’ve spent more time at GABP than anywhere else this summer. Last night I saw my Reds beat the crap out of the Yankees and I promised my ovaries that this man would someday fertilize their contents. (Poetic, I know.)

Chris Heisey, you BAMF.

I have continued to ignore my responsibilities as a gardner, my flower bed/yard are a sight, but when it’s not raining it’s approximately 80 billion degrees, so…I know. I know.

I am going to Miami for work at the end of next month and I’m tacking a weekend on to see Savannah. I miss her like WHOA. So hopefully we get a good beach day in, but regardless, we’ll have an awesome time.

I heard some interesting gossip that I would LOVE to share here, but alas, I cannot. I can and will say one thing though…

I FUCKING TOLD YOU SO, DICKWEED.

It feels SO GOOD to be right. But I digress. There will be more on this topic in coming months, I feel.

What else? Whaaaaat else…

I am insanely happy for the first time in forever. I mean, I still have my morose moments, duh…but I feel great. Besides the early TMJ arthritis in my jaw. But that’s not worth going into other than to say 29 has not been kind to my body so far.

I will catch myself letting my mind wander to Manfred when I’m doing mindless things like driving or trying to fall asleep and I get giddy. I think about seeing him and my heart gets all jumpy and I can’t wait to wrap my arms around him. Of course, he makes me absolutely insane sometimes. (dishwasher, motherfucker…DO YOU KNOW WHERE IT IS?!) but it’s all little things, and I just sort of sigh and move on. THIS IS MONUMENTAL FOR ME.

The other day, walking out of work, an image popped into my head of his hands. He has big, strong hands. I thought about what they would look like with a wedding ring on. I couldn’t get to him fast enough. I am in no hurry to slip a ring on my finger, but when the time comes, I can’t imagine it not being him. We balance each other out pretty well, even if we’re both too stubborn for our own good. He FINALLY met Ohio dad AND Space Cowboy. IN THE SAME WEEK. It was intense.

Oh yeah….I SAW MY COWBOY!!! It was only a few hours, but it was fucking amazing. I can’t wait for him to come back and visit again. I missed him so much and seeing him, after a fucking year…I can’t even describe it. I wanted to talk to him for weeks, but I have to save it. There will be more visits soon enough.

I am dragging today. I had to go get some coffee this morning. I was so wound up last night after our win that I couldn’t settle down and sleep until after midnight. I’m old, I can’t do that shit.

I hope you’re all doing awesome and all that shit. It goes without saying, but…love you, fools.

 





Poolside. Sno-cones. Fireflies. Summertime. Fuck! Mosquitos.

30 05 2010

I love three day weekends. A Monday off is the ultimate indulgence, no? Read the rest of this entry »








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