But I was glad to see the look on your face, anyway

6 09 2011

I’ve been meaning to sit down and write for about two weeks now. I’ve had several sketches/conversations in my head of things that I’ve been thinking about like…why does Fall get two names? And who is seriously pretentious enough to call it Autumn? Holy fuck, it’s nearly Autumn.

I’ve had a cramazing summer. Crazy + amazing. I just made that shit up. BOOM. I’ve been to NYC, Miami, ATL, Michigan…and it’s not slowing down. I head back to NYC at the end of the month for a full week. I’m both excited and nervous. And I definitely need new shoes.

Work has been totally insane, but awesome. I can honestly say I love my job. I can’t always say I love the people, but I love what I do. I’ve had so many amazing opportunities given to me this year and I am being challenged and forced to really stretch and prove myself. It’s what I needed all along. I still complain, because that’s kind of my shtick, but don’t believe me. I am 29 years old and I have a career. It’s terrifying, and fulfilling all at once.

The boyfriend is good. No. Not good. Great. So great. We’re doing the cohabitation thing on a more official basis and some days it’s hard. It’s always hard to live with another person, no matter who they are, but I think we’re really doing well with it. My father is starting to come out in me and my OCD “everything in it’s place” personality is starting to shine. But, my depth of patience is so much deeper with him. I can’t stand to sleep alone anymore. I do miss my cat, though. Like whoa. But I’m thoroughly convinced someday he’ll get a handle on his allergies and I’ll be able to snuggle my kitten at night, too.

I’ve been a bad friend and a bad blogger this summer. It’s not for any other reason than I just haven’t had the time. I owe many people phone calls and visits. Soon. I promise.

We started remodeling our bathroom. This man truly loves me. He just let me loose in Home Depot, Lowes and Bed, Bath and Beyond with minimal sighs and only one argument regarding a shower curtain. We finally got the two layer of wallpaper, with paint in the middle of that fuckery sandwich, down and as soon as the walls dry out a bit, bless you wallpaper steamer, we will prime, sand and paint. If IKEA ever gets their shit together, we’ll get new “furniture” and hook up a new light and have a beautiful new bathroom. I’m hoping by Christmas.

You only think I’m kidding.

I did Riverfest this year even though I said I wasn’t going to. I am so glad I did. It was the first year it rained during the fireworks. I stood there looking up into the sky, rain kissing my face, Manfred at my side, giant goofy grin on my face. It was amazing. Thanks to Wifey for the hookup on location this year. No crowds, food and booze. Perfection.

I have no new music recommendations for you. I haven’t listened to much music at all lately. It’s awful. I did buy the Muppet album and it’s fantastic. This morning with the cool, grey weather I felt like Wussy – Funeral Dress II was appropriate. I forgot that half that album makes me cry. DO NOT TELL MANFRED. He can’t know how much I like that album, then he’ll make me listen to more of his music. ;)

Ok. So this was your update. Recap: Things are crazy busy and crazy awesome and someday I will get this thing up and running for reals. I have so many project ideas, that’s my other alphabet disorder shining through, but fuck me…I need more hours in a day.

 





There are only two places on earth one can be, New Orleans, or somewhere ridiculous.

26 07 2010

Well I’m starting this at work, but lord only knows when I’ll finish it.

I am having an AWFUL day today. The printer screwed up a color on something I had printed and it’s causing mass chaos right now. I am totally over this. I need to listen to that tarot card reader and find myself some new employment.

Oh yeah, I had my cards read. When I was in New Orleans. Two freaking weeks ago. I’m sorry. I know that I owe you. So, here goes.

The Scotsman and I left, alone, around midnight to head down there. Five Hour Energy shots should be called Useless Excuse to Consume Caffeine. I was OUT for a good 70% of that drive. I tried, I really did. Years of being shuttled back and forth to Michigan as a kid made me a car sleeper. I can’t help it. On the plus side, if I’m asleep I can’t whine about being bored or having to pee. Win!

A&J didn’t come with us due to a last minute family emergency. They were both very much missed the whole time, but there will be many more visits. I am sure of this.

We got to the city, showered and picked up Three Man from the airport sans ball weed. Don’t ask. We immediately headed to Port of Call where I was WASTED within an hour. Oh Monsoons. Lovely, lovely Monsoons. A nap followed that and then we grabbed Mexican and I think we went out. I wrote about the first two days here and here.

I can’t remember the order we did everything in anymore. My brain is all mushy and full of left over brain damage from all the drinking, work fuckery and worry. So I’ll just recap.

Ate ate a LOT of truly delicious places including Port of Call, The Joint, Pho Tau Bay, Yo Mama’s, Juan’s Flying Burrito, Adolfo’s and Elizabeth’s.

Ok, time out. All of the above? Yeah…I wrote that shit on…Thursday? Shit is all blurred together. Last week went straight to hell and I drove the bus. So here’s what’s up. New Orleans was awesome. No shit. The boyfriend loved it and I loved being there with him. I miss it and I miss that crazy girl that lives there. I had two run ins with gay boys in the city. I mentioned the one who told me I was going to meet Tina Fey and be on tv. No luck on that front yet. The other just sort of observed me all night and then demanded all my attention because I was fabulous and he wanted to get to know me and be friends. I love the gays and they love me. What can I say?

We stayed out all night one night, we took the boy down to the shit show end of Bourbon. We drank and ate and made a whole lot of fucking merry. It was idyllic. It is the life I want. It is the life I need. I love that everyone….EVERYONE…says hello. Everyone wants to have a good time and relax and enjoy life.

We’ve been watching Treme and in one of the episodes there is some quote that says something to the effect of New Orleans being a hot mess and a corrupt nightmare, but living there is better than owning all of Ohio. A-fucking-men.

Look, I love my life here in it’s own little midwestern way. I love my family and friends and my routines and my places of interest…and it’s “home”. But I never feel like myself here. I always feel awkward in my own skin. I find myself embarrassed sometimes to go out in public with my tattoos showing and my stretched ears because people look at me weird. I can feel them judging me. I go out of my way to be sweeter than honey and little miss manners. But they’re afraid of my differences. Down there? People don’t even look twice. I fit. I feel comfortable. I can breathe.

Someday NOLA and I will be together. It may not be for a few more years…lord knows I’m needed here right now, but she’ll wait for me. I know she will.





Everyone says this is it. This isn’t it.

16 04 2009

I am tired, ya’ll. I’m really going to phone it in, which is a shame as I have several HILARIOUS MFEO stories to share with you. I just can’t. I have to be at work at 8:15 for a press check tomorrow. I usually don’t get there until nearly 9:30. I’m not a morning person.

I haven’t been able to sleep at all this week. Not quite sure why. I think it has to do, in part, with my crazy weekend. One late night will throw my entire week off. I’ve also had a lot on my mind. I had to rant and rave at Martha today just to get it all out. We have decided we need to follow the advice we give each other and that we’re crazy.

I’ve been thinking about Douche a lot and honestly, I miss him. No one else will ever be him. That’s a good and bad thing. I miss the person he was and what we had…before he fucked it all up. Most of the time I’m totally fine and I don’t care, but when a lot of things happen like they are right now I get…jealous? I had a plan. I had my entire life with him. It’s gone. I’m alone (still willingly…I think) and I am watching all my friends have kids and it hurts a little. That was supposed to be me. I wanted all of our kids to grow up together. There’s a lesson here. Don’t ever plan shit. Just live each day sun up to sun down and be grateful for the small victories. I didn’t stab anyone today. Success!

In something else that’s irritating me news, Banky and Big Red broke up. I guess she got fed up with his bullshit and walked out on him again. Surprise, surprise. Savannah and I had a bet. I found out on…Tuesday? I asked her how long she thought until I heard from him. I put my money on Friday, she put hers on Thursday. We both lost. He texted me last night whining about how I’m never on facebook chat anymore. Hi, it’s called I’m avoiding you, jerkface. I asked him if there was anything he needed to talk about. “Nope, just bored.” Not my problem.

I’ve had such a roller coaster day. I had a nice lunch in the sunshine and that helped pull me out of my homicidal mood. Somedays I just can’t deal with that place. I did get my review though today. I was terrified. I show up late, leave early, ignore the dress code…I am a model employee. Ha. I got an awesome review. Kudos, me. I will reward myself by going to sleep right now and dreaming about one week from tonight. I will be arm in arm with Woodership Down singing Lucero songs at the top of my lungs. Sweet dreams, indeed.








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